Weight myself for the first time in a long time. My head hurts. It’s a huge number. I disgust myself. I’m counting calories and going to be weighing myself a million times a day again. I gotta get my control back.

Tonight is really hard

All I want need to be is bones. I must lose as much weight as I can. I’m scared.

You can tell that to my eating disorder. Idiot.

You can tell that to my eating disorder. Idiot.